My sweet little baby girl turned one a month ago. When I came to the realization that we were nearing her first birthday, an uneasy feeling came over my stomach. I felt weak and heavy hearted. So this is what they meant by "it goes so fast". I have not been prepared up to this point for any of the milestones that are expected of a 3 month old, 6 month old, 9 month old... there's never enough time to wrap your mind around it! Though the time is flying too fast, I would not wish Sadie to be a little baby again because it brings me joy and excitement to watch her learn something new everyday. To see her enthusiastically take steps in my direction and hug me when she falls into my arms. For her to blow me a kiss and cuddle before she goes to sleep. She just started sharing her toys and food with me, which can get a little exhausting at dinner time, but I appreciate it all the same. She waves and says "hiii" and waves to say "bye bye". She says "more more" and "peees" and sometimes "all done" which is more often a sign when she throws her food off of the tray. She hugs her little bear and yells at you when you're out of ear shot. She jibber jabbers a whole lot of words that she is sure that you should understand. I am so blessed to be her Mommy and look forward to see her peeking at me over her crib. I just love my little booger. It's still hard to believe that I have another sweet baby due in August. It's funny how you somehow experience some of the same joys and fears as if it's your first child, but a sense of comfort in knowing that you've done it before. I am just excited and anxious all at the same time. I cannot wait to just meet him or her! I love how close Sadie will be to her new sibling and I know that they will be good friends and just so sweet to watch together!
Our House: we experienced first hand how God works in situations even when we are SURE we know what is best. I had been keeping an eye on this house since the spring and a little into the summer, we finally decided that we were almost certainly buying a house instead of renting and called a realtor to look at a few. She first told us that finding a house in our price range was going to be near impossible, but we were pretty confident after doing a ton of looking online. So after multiple requests, she finally sent us the listings. We saw this house first and could see the potential even though there were quite a few unknowns. After seeing a few more houses, we looked at it again and decided that day that we'd like to make an offer on it.
We ripped out the carpet, scrubbed down the walls, doors, and surfaces, sanded down all of the ugly stripes, primed, and finally painted every wall, baseboard, and door. Jim replaced the roof and installed brand new siding and shutters. He did a little experimenting with some of the wires to try to get our lights to work again, which ended up being unsuccessful, but needless to say he's still superman! We made countless trips to Lowe's and spent many a sleepless night working just to be woken up early by Sadie who didn't get the memo to sleep in. We got a new front and back door, carpet, and Jim installed new floor in the kitchen. It is an incredibly long list that has Jimmy written all over it. We are so incredibly happy with our new little home! God truly does give good gifts to his children and that isn't limited to material things, but the gifts I store in my heart, the lessons he's taught me this year.
Road Trip! I don't think I could recount off the top of my head every trip we've taken this year. Weddings, graduations, 100 year old great grandmothers, holidays a sudden need to see family... all reasons to jump in the car and go. Sadie has been such a trooper through it all, though I've had a few meltdowns. Running out of gas and getting stuck in unexpected traffic jams are all a part of the fun. I grew up taking many a car trip and it just brings back happy memories. It's always been a special thing for Jim and I, a place where we're able to spend quality time together and just enjoy each other's companies without too many distractions. We've had many a memorable conversation on a good ole road trip.
My Family: I am so thankful for you! For my little family of four, for all of my extended family... there are so many of you and I appreciate each of you so much! I don't know if a baby has ever been so loved by so many.
It has been an incredible year and I look forward to all that is to come in 2013. I know that God is holding our future and that gives me peace and joy, knowing that no matter what happens, he has good plans for us and for our lives. God bless you this new year!